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Thursday, February 1st, 2007
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6:31 pm - One last entry
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Guys, I have a personal confession I haven't really told anyone. I'm done filmschool, and I still have no fucking idea what I want to do with my life. It's stressing me out, I can't help but stay at home and feel guilty because I don't know what I'm doing or where I'm going from here. I'm still trying to think and I have considered a few choices for when I do finish paying off my loans.
Fire Fighter
Dry Waller
Anything in the construction trade.
I'm not sure yet, but I pray to God I end up somewhere half decent 10 years from now.
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| Sunday, January 7th, 2007
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8:32 pm - Sayonara
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Officially done LJ broski's,It's been fun (not really) but whatever, I'll catch y'all around Markham or msn, so fuck staying connected with stupid LJ, peace.
I made up a joke today that I'll end off with hope you all like it.
What does Mr. Miyagi do when he's bored and alone?
Wax off!
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| Saturday, December 30th, 2006
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11:24 pm - D.O.S
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So as I'm sure everyone knows, Saddam was hung yesterday. Lotsa people are celebrating down in the middle east, some aren't yadda yadda. This just goes to prove that some people are just as barbaric as him. Think about it. Being happy that someone dies. Is it really THAT human to be overjoyed over the death of a dictator. As evil as he probably was, I still think it's wrong to kill. Sure he got slapped with Genocide, and that's like murder X infinity, but consider this, just because he killed so much people, is it really right to be happy over the death of him? Or are we just as wrong as he is? More people need to look at themselves, taking the life of someone is the ultimate flaw. You are basically stealing everything from him, your stealing what he is, what he was, what he'll never be. Maybe it's just human to be happy over certain deaths, but bear in mind, that if you're the least bit happy over his death, you are just as barbaric as he was. Basic hypocrisy at it's finest.
I believe what he did was wrong and I believe we are also wrong, I think murder is wrong period. So by all means celebrate, then think outside the box when you're done, and think about WHAT YOU ARE CELEBRATING. You're celebrating death, you think things are going to get any better by killing him? This world's in the shitter as it already is, and by killing him things are only going to get worse.
And no, I am not a bible thumper.
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| Wednesday, December 27th, 2006
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12:02 pm - Crazy Shit
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Wow, I had a pretty whacked out dream that I just woke up from.
I was sleeping in this deep dream state, and I don't quite recall anything from it. But it was like a double dream, so I'll tell you the second one. I wake up, and I could have sworn I was in my room, it was THAT vivid. But the thing was, I was blind. I just knew I was in my room though. So I'm lying down in my bed with my eyes closed. I open my eyes, and I can't see anything, and this was pretty damn real. I can only see like bits and pieces of things. A ray of moving sunlight hits my bedroom wall (probably reflected from a car outside) And I'm thinking "wtf, I can only see things that are super bright". So then my cell phone goes off vibirating next to me on my night table. I'm feeling my nighttable in search of my cellphone, then the flashing light on my cell lets me know where it is. I pick it up and answer it: "Hello?"
But the thing was, I was breatheless when I said it, I couldn't breathe, so I kept trying to say hello over and over again, but couldn't quite squeeze it out because I wasn't breathing, and whoever was on the other end of the line wasn't responding, or saying anything. But then after that I woke up.
This dream was freakishly vivid which is why I had to post it.
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| Monday, December 18th, 2006
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1:35 am - D:
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I've come to the conclusion I have messed up shaped ears. Everytime I put my earphones in my ears they fall out. They won't stay! This has been happening since grade 8.
Busy week this week, can you say HECTIC?! I know I can! :P
Christmas shopping, exams, and WORK, WORK, WORK!!! It sucks I'm working chrsitmas eve but kinda good at the same time cause I get ta miss church! :P
Hopefully I don't have to work a closing shift on new years eve. That'd blow ass cock.
mmmm what else?
Last Wednesday I got hammered with Shaddy and Meena and still managed to get home somehow, it was funtimes.
Lately I've been super lucky, I cannot explain it. Life is good.
Peace
Rick.
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| Monday, December 11th, 2006
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11:08 pm - Welcome to December
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Hey dudes, dudettes, and random strangers that may read out of boredom.
I just wanted to talk about my kickass 2 days so far.
I woke up Sunday morning and it was sunny, not cold, and reaaal purdy outside, I knew right from there it was gonna be a good day. It was, needless to say. Work flew by, and my paycheck exceeded 200$ for a change. I'm looking for new work, I might be applying to that wal mart at stoufville this week if DVD Wave doesn't hire me. Anyways, went home, chillaxed talked to friends, got a phone call at around 9, didn't end till midnight, went to bed, woke up decided not to go to school cause I didn't feel like travelling, time passed I got a text saying I missed an exam! :O
BUT, turns out God was on my side, it was a take home exam and all I had to do was get my proff to e-mail it to me which I did, so that's done, there were other good things about today which I'm probably spacing out on, but whatever, life is good at the moment, I'm happy, and hope it's like this forever. Christmas shopping this Wednesday with Meena, and probably getting Evanesence concert tickets to see stone sour, hurrah!
I'm out,
Peace
I love life.
current music: Knowledge - Operation Ivy
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| Monday, November 27th, 2006
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7:49 pm - ahoy hoy Maties
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It's been some time, I figured I'd keep updates to the minimum because no one really updates anymore.
Anyways, I just finished working on a filmshoot this weekend, I had a blast, but got NO sleep. Friday, I had to carry 2 cases of empty 2-4 allll the way downtown which was fucking awful. Well one case was actually 28, one was 24. I ended up showing up too early so had to chill at downtown with 2 cases of beer bottles which wasn't fun because I could only travel a certain distance without getting tired. You have no idea how much I heard "where's the party?" while I was walking.
I finally met up with Danny, we picked up some film equipment, and got a ride to St. Clair where the movie was being shot. So we shot all of the exterior scenes Friday night. I play a drunk guy in one of the chase scenes =). I had to leave early friday night (at about 9PM) so I could go to work the next day.
Saturday was dreadful. I woke up at 5AM to be at work by 6:30AM. I got off at 12PM, and straight from there I bussed to Finch. After Finch I went to St. Andrews station to use the bank machine. From there, I went to St. Clair West where I walked to the shoot. St. Clair is such a ghetto neighborhood. So I reach the filmshoot at roughly 3:30 and did continuity. This shoot ended at like 3AM, and I was REALLY tired. We shot interior party scenes where Neil got his acoustic guitar, played a heavy riff, and began randomly screaming "VAGINAS!" which was really fucking funny. Sebas rolled us up a celebratory L pape, I smoked, and got so much more stoned than I actually expected to get (it's been a while). So me and Zach leave the shoot, I was really stoned, and we took the St.Clair bus to his Apartment, where I smoked more weed and passed out, lol.
I crashed on Zach's couch, woke up at 10:00AM and bussed back to the shoot. Soon as we show up sebas already rolled a spliff and I was thinking "should I go for it?", idiot I am, I do, and get really stoned during the shoot where I worked half ass. We shot, I did continuity once again/Boom op, weed wore off after about 3 hours and I was fine, and we wrapped up at like 1:30AM, I ended up leaving at 3AM cause we had to clean the mess we made at the dudes house (we were shooting party scenes). Basically we shot at a house infested with nerds, lmao. It was sooooo funny, Danny actually used to live in this house (which is why he wanted to shoot there) we show up and 3 nerdy dudes who are also/were film students are living there. This one dude was MAD nerdy, I had to hold my laughter in after he told everyone that he mimiks Jackie Chan fight moves when watching his movies, which is how he learned self defense, LMAO. He was serious btw, and I heard these nerds argue over LOTR for hours which was annoying and gay. Anyways, moving on, I found out how to get to my moms house from the house that we were shooting at, and decided to walk it seeing as buses were running like hourly at this time and I'd be better off walking because by the time the bus shows up I could already be at Caledonia.
Walkng the streets of St. Clair 3:00AM in the morning is fucking scary!!! Mainly because of the crackheads/gangsters/gangsters who sell crack/gangsters who smoke crack/hookers. So I start walking, I put my hood up cause I wanted to blend in with the enviroment thinking "no one will harm me if they think I'm a gangster, or crackhead!" I start walking and about 3 blocks down I see this lady walking towards me. I'm tryng to avoid eye contact looking at the pavement as I walk, she says "hey". I stop and turn around and say "yeah?" she says "Do you know where I can get "things"". I'm like "what?", she says "do you know where I can get "things"", then finally it clcked in, she wanted crack or meth or something, I can tell because of her bad teeth/deep breathing. I thought "fuck this has to be the most depressing, disturbing question I've ever been asked". I told her "sorry I can't help you.". So I continued walking with the occasional crackhead walking by weirdly, a few gangsters who didn't acknowledge me and I finally reached my moms house safely.
I crashed at my moms place and woke up and went straight to school to present something. I got a letter from finance to ban me from class because I haven't made another payment which was due in October that I totally spaced out on. So I told my proff to let me present and I'll leave and get a temporary attendance letter from financing. He lets me, I present with Mark and Andrew, and leave, I go to financing and tell them "quit fucking bothering me, you'll get yer fucking grand this thursday you mother fuckers!", well I didn't say that, but something like that, minus the fucks and bad attitude, lol. So I get the temporary attendance and just left school as oppose to going back to class cause I was piss tired from working on set all weekend.
I will have pictures soon, when I'm not tired, theres only like 3 or so though and like 2 video clips. They'll be posted.
current music: Living in Chaos - The Offspring
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| Monday, November 13th, 2006
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10:10 am - I'm 19 Motherfucker!
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I'm 19 now, this weekend we had family over and I got tanked and it was really fun, my grandma got me a case of 2-4 for my b-day, and I got alot of booze to last me the next 2 months! Yay!
I got a new computer finally, and its sweet. So fucken yeahhhh! I love it. Thank god for the b-day money I earned otherwise I wouldn't have been able to buy the pieces for it.
Stone Sours in town this January. Carlo doesn't want to go seeing as they're opening for Evanesence, and Meena does wanna go, I'm still sketchy about going, so I guess we'll see what happens, if I do wind up going then cool, otherwise... fuck it, stone sour shouldn't be opening for a band like evanesence, it's an insult to Corey Taylor and James. But whatever, I already saw them open for Korn and that was bitchen! Argh, I dunno what to do. We'll just have to wait and see. Cause they're only gonna have like maybe 40 minutes of stagetime, and then I'm gone, and Tickets are about 40$ So I dunno.
Guys, guess what? I got to drive around the block last night!!! Hahaha. It was alright.
current mood:  happy
current music: Pretty Fly - The Offspring
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| Wednesday, November 1st, 2006
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2:37 pm - HaLLOween and Other Stuff
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I'm kinda steamed off. I had to work on Halloween, and now I'm supposed to go to school today to run auditions but my bus pass decided to expire so I'm stuck at home. Started a new e-mail account yesterday, decided to finally get rid of that old cheesey one I started when I was in grade 8. rickymaccarl@hotmail.com, plain, but honest. So I turn 19 in less than a week. I have an opening shift on my b-day which sucks, but it should all be good cause I'm getting smashed with G-section in downtown afterwards for mine and Andrews b-day. So seeing as I'm turning 19 finally, I can really give a crap if you guys turn 20 cause I will still be considered a teen AND legal while you guys get older and more fragile, muahahahaha. Oh, btw, I'm having a small party on the 11th so if anyone wants to drop by, feel free, it's nothing big, gonna be mostly family, but yeah, drop by if your bored.
I've come up with my new years resolution early this year and it's to get my freaking G-2... And my G license (might as well go all the way if I'm getting the G-2). So I'll be rollin', and ridin' dirty and all that jazz if I wind up doing it. The only way I'm going to come out of 2007 alive is if I have my G-2. Unless I get into a car accident.
I've been doing location scouting, looking for frat houses for a fifth term short we're shooting. I found one frat house that may be interested, and they actually called us back, so score one for me! Not so stressed now. Umm what else? My section has youtube account up with a few of our shorts posted, just go on youtube and look up Gsection, so far we only have 3 posted but there's more from our section, look up intertubes, and cold vengeance and I dunno, if you have free time do it.
Check out Chad Vader on youtube also, it's hilarious (not from filmschool).
Annnnnd yeah, I think that's about it. I'm shaving my head next week.
Oh and me and some dude I work with who just started his first term in filmschool are doing a short and we need extras and 2 male actors, one big dude, and one small dude. So if anyone wants to be an extra in a short that will most likely be posted on youtube, and possibly be entered in indie film fests if we have time, then holler. If anyones up for acting that's cool too, just as long as you're a good actor. For more info just msg me.
current mood:  Alright
current music: Avenues & Alleyways - Rancid
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| Saturday, October 14th, 2006
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10:39 am - The Casting Bag
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I finally posted my 4th term final up on myspace, hope you guys like it.
www.myspace.com/rickster11587
yyyyeah, leave it, tell me what you think.
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| Tuesday, October 3rd, 2006
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9:51 pm - Hi Everyone
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So for the next few months or so I will have lots of freetime, I have 2 weeks off from school till my last term starts, and I only have school on Mondays from then on, so I dunno, if any of you kids have free time they wanna share to keep me busy that'd be grand!
So I was pondering a few days ago and I realized that exactly one month from this Thursday I will be 19. I will be legal and will enjoy it to an extent. I'll be getting old, and that sucks. There's still so much I have to do in life, and I know I have lots of time, but time just seems to fly. Plus I'm not really looking forward to it cause my dad and his buddies wanna take me to a strip club and I seem to be the only one who finds that awkward. I mean it's my dad, I don't wanna watch some topless girl grind him, ughhh, I can't believe I just typed that, christ almighty. Whatever, I'll just say NO! My Dads cool and all but that's just too fucken weird for me. Buddies is one thing, family is another.
I have so much things to get off my mind, but really, I just don't have the energy too, so I'll leave off with My 4th term screening was awesome. I can't wait to screen it to you guys but I have to wait two weeks before I can burn a copy cause my buddy has the only copy and he's in Ottawa right now. But yeah, there's some filmschool 4th terms up on youtube, just look up Toronto Filmschool.
current mood:  blank
current music: Hybrid Moments - The Misfits
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| Saturday, September 23rd, 2006
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9:55 pm - Right On
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Yesterday I saw Jackass #2 with Jay, Ross, Carlo, my bro, and other peeps most of you don't know of. All I have to say is that was the first time I've ever seen anyone drink horse semen. Seriously, that was fucked up, I love it.
All in all the movie was jokes, it deserves an oscar, lots of it made me sqeamish like the puppet show at the beginning with the dudes penis and the snake, man that was fucked. Overall the reason I liked this movie is because it was so dirty it made me laugh, and there's so much fucked up shit in it, it just keeps you drawn in. It's constantly like "wtf are they gonna do next?!". But honestly nothing topped off Chris Pontius drinking the horse load, that was super fucked. Some of the shit in this movie will make you wanna barf, but overall hilarious. I just can't wait till the unrated version of this comes out on DVD, I'd love to see some of the shit they couldn't show.
So I have a free pass because I decided to buy the unrated version of Jackass one, so if anyones in just tell me, because I don't wanna waste the free ticket, plus, I wanna watch it again because it was awesome.
So leave it
Peace
Rick.
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| Saturday, September 16th, 2006
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5:25 pm - #2
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Alright dudes,
Jackass #2 this coming Friday, Justin, my brother told me he saw you at McGivney, and yes I am bringing him with us on Friday cause I haven't chilled with him in like forever. I will most likely pay you back your thirty, if anything I'll just treat you if you want.
Carlo put the comp on hold I have too many things happening at once, payments will resume next week for sure.
Ross, be a Boss, and come with us!
Anyone else who's down for Jackass #2 next Friday is welcome as well, unless it's Mark. Nah I kid, he's welcome too.
So this Friday I have no school. Sooooo I'm working an opening shift for work, I get off at three, will probably hit McGivney 4:30ish to pick up my bro and will meet you dudes at Stc at around 6ish. I will most likely be earlier pending on how much of a bitch the bus system wants to be.
Well you guys know how to post if you have any changes or questions. Leave it.
I find it funny that when I actually do drag myself to do some work that's actually when I can't work. Past few weeks I've been trying to capture footage to edit but the HD decks won't fucking transfer and it's pissing me off because I've wasted three Mondays in a row now trying to capture footage that is due next week, and I've lost a shitload of sleep doing so.
well anyways,
Peace
Rick.
btw, Mark Hoppus' new band is going to to Crush the faggoty Airwaves of the Angels. Word.
current mood: tired
current music: Lycanthrope - Plus 44
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| Thursday, September 7th, 2006
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9:28 pm
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Man, no one really updates much anymore, someone holler, let me know you guys are still alive! Well that's pretty much it. Yep.
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| Wednesday, August 30th, 2006
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10:48 pm - Family Values 06'
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Last friday I found out that Colin was having a party. I over-hyped it just a bit. I showed up and I was soooooo bored. I even ditched work to show up, biiiiig mistake. I mean don't get me wrong, it was nice seeing highschool friends again, but it was just so fucking boring. I had to crash the night because he lives right next to Denison and from Denison it'd only take me like an hour and a half to get to school. So I get to school to edit but the HD decks were fucked and I was short on time so I left to meet up with Carlo. I was sooooo tired, I had no sleep whatsoever, because if I fell asleep I knew Dave would do something mean to me whether it's fart on me or drop a toolbox on my nuts.
So we left my school and went to the Molson Amphitheatre and travelled across the ex to get there. I want to go to the ex so badly now but I don't have the time. I saw the haunted funhouse and just wanted to go in it so badly. So many snack booths, it totally reminded me of the time when my dad would ditch work to take me to the ex when I was 6. I definitley need to go to the ex again it's been YEARS! We arrived at the Molson Amphitheatre at 2:15. I won a free Heys Laptop bag. Too bad I have no laptop, lol. I spun some wheel at some contest booth, they asked me "what korn video follows a bullet?" I said freak on a leash then they said "you win a free bag!" I said "sweet!". So we entered the amphitheatre after filling out other contest forms and then Carlo bought me booze, cause he's responsible like that, we took our lawn seats and enjoyed some of the opening bands, I passed out for lots of it because I was really sleepy.
So stonesour took the stage and they were awesome. They did Bother, and right after bother they did Through Glass, that was cool the way they did it, I was super dissapointed that they didn't do Idle Hands but they still kicked ass. They also announced they were returning in January so seeing them is a must for me. Korn took the stage and their setlist was better than last time. They even went in the crowd for their acoustic session. Me and Carlo snuck by security and made our way up front. Our seats were sooo much closer than what they were actually supposed to be, lol.
Yesterday I came home from the dentist and bumped into Ross. we went to a Long and Mcquade near my place which I didn't even know existed. I saw the coolest Ibanez guitar that I want to buy, I need to take up a new hobby cause I'm bored. So I already have a new investment after I get my new comp.
Yesterday was the final day of my buddies filmshoot, I spent 20 full dollars on junkfood. Not good. I'm just ASKING for diabetes. I actually think I might be developing a caffiene addiction so I think it's time to stay away frm the coffee and energy drinks again, they're no good.
Anyways That's all
Peace.
btw, I really wish I was 19, I've been blown off twice by friends because I'm under aged, and it's depressing. Just 2 more months. Oh and I should have pics from the concert posted as soon as Carlo decides to send me them. I'm waiting buddy.
current music: Korn-Right Now and Stonesour- 30/30-150
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| Wednesday, August 23rd, 2006
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8:52 pm - Bright-Side, Bad-Side, B-Side
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Bright-Side:
Monday we had a filmshoot that went by soooo smoothly. It was great, good weather, good shots, and good actors. So we finished our filmshoot and headed down to the LCBO to get ready for a party. I decided to go seeing as it was the last party at the peach and I've only been to one (which I now unfortunatly regret). So we got to my buddies place and we hung out then as it got later more people showed up. I learned that I now have no stomach tolerence for Rum seeing as I downed a bottle at my last party and puked on hell of a lot of it. So after my second glass of Rum I got pretty sick and quit on it and started drinking beer. I didn't really get tanked on alcohol but I smoked a hell of alot of weed. I pulled pipe hits, bong hits, spliff hits and a freaking bucket hit before I passed out. The party was so fun. There were girls, sing alongs, and just goodtimes in general. Nothing beats a college party, especially if you're the youngest one there. We were up till almost 6am in the morning. I had to be in class at 8am but still surprisingly managed. So much happened that night that I can't even tell you everything.
Some girl at the party was drinking this smirnoff apple cooler thingy, she gave me a taste, it tasted like sour apple warheads, I loved it. I barely have any recollection of what happened, what me and people did or talked about, I only remember bits and pieces. I remember this video though. It was like 3 in the morning and me and friends were all out in front of the peach. Justin and Yayzhua were freestyle battling while Danny tried coming up with "phat beats" on his acoustic guitar, lmao. So this lady comes out and she's freaking on us for being so loud, saying she's gonna call the cops, she has work in the morning, and Niel, who is drunk out of his mind, begins to scream at us too, saying "I'm fucking gonna call the cops on you guys, yer soooo louuuud!". Just listen to the audio of the video, you can barely see anything because I was too messed to operate a cameraphone.
http://picturemessaging.rogers.com/guest/view/message.do?lsdb=7&invite=OEmr46JQ5hYmaYZhUURL&subretailerid=ROGERS&shareName=MMS&retailerid=ROGERS
Bad-Side:
I got home from the party and school the next day, I was still a little bit burnt out seeing as I had maybe only 2 hours of sleep and a hell of alot of intoxicants. I got home and found a list of chores to do, I had no sleep so I thought "fuck that". My dad gets home and freaks on me because I'm apparently not pulling my weight around at home when it comes to housework. He also says he might start charging me to live at home which is lame and so fucking typical of him. He says but never does so I'm not worried. So I pass out in bed he knocks on my door like 4 hours later and yells at me, and I don't know if any of you have tried communicating with parents while you're still mildly under the influence/burnt out, but you look and sound like the worlds biggest retard through their eyes and ears, I can tell right away that he knew I was messed when I responded "why is the juice jug by the garbage can if it isn't garbage?" an answer that was probably completely irrelevant to the question he asked me. It probably did involve a juice jug though.
Todays filmshoot sucked. The equipment room gave us really shitty equipment. We almost broke 600 dollars worth of filters today because the Matte box they gave us decided to randomly break in half (that's 2 filters). We didn't get all the shots we needed today, the continuity is gonna be shit cause it was cloudy, I had a stomach ache, and overall just a day filled with unforunate events. To top it off I can't be at the next two shoots because of my lame ass job at that lame ass grocery store. We are now short on trimmers because one of the people in my department just walked out because he was extremely pissed off at my manager (I honestly couldn't blame him but that's another story).
So I get home and heard the peanut on my shit sundae of a day. My cousins new baby (baby boy 6 lbs, named Jesse) is at sick kids hospital in critical condition because his organs aren't operating properly, he may also have brain damage, and this was news that is probably going to keep me down for the rest of the month pending on how things turn out for him. I mean, to find out that your new born cousin may even die isn't really news I want to hear. It's really depressing and I really wish I could do something, but I can't because it's God's plan, and for me to even believe that God's plan is to give a new life brain damage is fucking sickening. I hate when shit like this happens to babies or any child.
Well that's the end of my long entry, I hope you read it all cause I know it was long. It was an accident, once I type I can't stop.
Peace.
Rick.
current mood:  nauseated
current music: nothing by Oasis cause they SUCK! (inside joke)
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| Saturday, August 19th, 2006
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10:40 pm - Wake-up Call
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This morning I woke up at 8:30. My dad woke me up, he was telling me my bank was on the phone. Calling me 8:30 in the morning. I answer it, and they were telling me they didn't take the months interest out on the 13th. My account isn't empty I still have about 23$ in it and they say I need more money in it. So I was like "Yeah no problem there'll be money in it today". So I head down to work extra early to pick up my paycheck so I can roll to the bank. They tell me they misplaced my check. I didn't get paid this week. :(
Work friday night sucked because I was the only one who decided to show up in my department (what do you expect, it's Friday). I asked for my paycheck that night they said "yeah we can't find it now we'll give it to you tomorrow". So with my bank calling me early in the morning about the interest I knew my dad was going to freak. So I tried avoiding him in the house until he trapped me in the kitchen. He asked "why did RBC call?". Instead of lying, putting more stress on myself I just came clean. He surprisingly took it well. When I found out I wasn't getting my paycheck this week, I almost freaked. So I borrowed money from my dad, which I hate doing mainly because I want to at least try to stay responsible. Whatever, I'll get over it. I'm not mad or anything, just dissapointed in my employers I guess. Meh, who am I kidding, I am pissed, but I guess you can't really blame me. I worked for fucking free last week, if I knew I was going to be doing that I would have never showed up. I find this friggin ironic because my buddy Andrew who works at Sobey's was bitching at me on Thursday that his work did it to him. I didn't think nothing of it at first but when the same thing happened to me I was like "fuck, this sucks, now I know why he was pissed".
I have a filmshoot to go to on Monday. I'm the 1st AC. I get to hook up the 16mm and play around with the focus. After the filmshoot I have a party to go to. Apparently we're buying a Texas Mickey of JD which means we're probably getting tanked. I'm gonna try staying sober though cause I kinda wanna reach Markham that night. Being intoxicated in a far away place is scarey cause you get lost and confused. Pending how the party is and how much people show up will determine whether I stay late or not.
Last week I crushed my finger under a tub of ice. I don't know if any of you have done that before but it freaking kills. I thought cutting my finger hurt but I was at work and smashed my finger and wanted to scream "fuck" but couldn't because customers were around and customers are apparently offended by the word "fuck" because they aren't as normal as we are. It's because it's heavy and cold. It's like having a frozen elephant step on your finger. My new pissoff is this freaking mosquito bite on my right pinky knuckle, it's so irritating. I just wish that every single mosquito on earth would die. Well, those are my present frusturations.
Peace.
Rick.
current music: Hope - Sublime
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| Wednesday, August 9th, 2006
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6:22 am - Truth Speaks
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| Tuesday, August 1st, 2006
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9:10 pm - I'm Back
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By the looks of it I'm back on LJ (Just when you thought I got a life!). I really needed something to fuel my frusturations because videogames were not cutting it... they all get boring. So I guess it's back to the LJ for me. Sorry for suckering you into the last entry, or for getting your hopes up or for letting you down. One way or another I'm back.
Few things I am pissed off about.
CHINESE IS THE MOST ANNOYING FUCKING LANGUAGE ON EARTH!
Some may say "ohh that's racist!" It's my personal opinion so stuff a cock in yer mouth and go fuck yourself, nothing is worse than being on a bus with a bunch of Asian kids screaming chinese words at one another. Why do they feel the need to scream when they talk? Honestly? Maybe if I started to scream words they didn't understand on the bus they'd see how annoying it is! No I don't hate chinese people I just find it annoying when everyone is talking chinese, erm my bad, not talking, screaming chinese at one another. No I don't eevesdrop, I just find loud people annoying plain and simple. I don't care if you're White, Chinese, Indian, Black, if you're loud SHUT THE FUCK UP.
The weather
It is fucking humid outside, and it's a pissoff when retarded bus drivers don't put on the ac. Especially the first thing in the morning. I'd be squeaky clean and get on the bus and sweat my nuts off. Open windows do not help.
Retarded Customers
I witnessed a customer fall... fall right in front of a wet floor sign. She demanded I pick her shit up for her. Eventhough it was her fault for slipping. There was a sign. It said wet floor. Even if you can't fucking read, the picture on it is self explanatory. When I say demand, she literally stood up, crossed her arms and said "pick it up". Would you be pissed off at a person that did their job?
Ever give up the one chance to better yourself to do the right thing for the sake of a friend only to find out that that friend you did the right thing for was doing the wrong thing, making giving up that one chance of bettering yourself utterly useless? I now find that doing the right thing is useless because no matter how much you try everyone else is going to do the wrong thing. You'd be surprised how many dishonest people live on this earth. Sure there's the few you can trust but there's always those few you'd least expect. So all I'm saying is be careful who you trust because you just might wind up depressed one day.
When Film students get pissed:
these were hung all over my school today. Once the dean saw it he quickly retaliated by posting a sign outside his office stating that Evening with Kevin Smith was cancelled and refunds will be issued on the week of August 12. So basically I get $20 back which is a good thing because I will at least have spending money for the month. Incase no one knew, Carlo is selling me his comp and I'm upgrading it, so I'm on a tight ass budget that involves me starving myself day by day. I'll be editing at home by September.
Peace.
Rick.
I have a secret spot at the park near my place, nice view of Swan Lake, and a great place to relax at. Find me there Monday Mornings.
current mood:  annoyed
current music: Pool Shark - Sublime
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| Saturday, July 22nd, 2006
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10:09 pm - The End
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This is my last entry (hope that got your attention, lol).
LJ'S been cool, but I figure it's time to start taking myself a bit more seriously, I need to MOVE ON. I need to start doing something with myself. So those on the LJ list, I'll see you guys around, you've guys been great help to problems I've had in the past and you guys are super cool for that. If anyone needs to find me on the net check myspace, I rarely update, but there will be updates once in a blue moon. So here's the last entry:
I've kinda been in the gutter lately, I accidentally got a friend fired, because I have a way with people... a crappy way. And, well, he's still cool with me and all, but I can't help but feel like shit. I'm told it's not my fault but I seriously feel half responsible. OSAP and school is still hassling me about $, but I'm slowly getting through it, if I don't make it through it..... I dunno... time to switch majors possibly? 25 grand down the fucking drain?! Amen. I love film school, but I still feel kinda out of place, I'm doing what I love right now, and it's eating a hole in my stomach and in my wallet. So I figure if Film School takes me nowhere I'm better off just changing majors.
Where do I go from here?
I'm seeing Clerks 2 on Monday and I'm looking forward to it. It's gonna be awesome. Yay Clerks!
I finally got Live Freaky Die Freaky a movie I've been anticipating for so long. It's weird gross and funny. Sex scenes are like hardcore puppet porn. Pretty funny, but super gross at times. The humour is really dark. If you're into punk music check it out because odds are it's your type of humour.
I'm working on 2 fourth term short films. I'm the key grip on one and the assistant camera op on the other. Should be fun. I'm pitching my short next term. I've only wrote the synopsis for it but I've been getting good reactions, I have my fingers crossed.
I've decided to finally get my tattoo, but I've got no one to go with, so if anybody wants to hold my hand while I'm getting inked that would be greatly appreciated, lol. But seriously, somebody drop a line because I want to get this done soon.
The computer investment is going down the trash. I keep trying to save, but I keep having to spend. It's so retarded , I deposit some cash on my credit line, take out 21 for bus tickets, and put whatevers left in my account leaving me with 20 dollars pocket cash, and it's ridiculous because 20 can't get me through the week. Maybe if I was still in highschool it'd get me through the week, but these days 20$ lasts me three days tops. Meh, I'm still trying, All that matters is I haven't been broke once yet.
So many things and problems of mine have been left undone so I'm going to fix them. One thing being the G-2. I really need my G-2, like soon. It's pathetic. I'm turning 19, this november, and I still don't got my fucking G-2, it's bugging me because it's always on my mind. So I figure I should do something about it.
FINAL RANT
RANTS
Ranting can be such a pissoff once in a while because I find more people just rant rather than trying to do something about what they're ranting about. I'm a hypocrite =D. Truth be told, I rant because I find lotsa things funny and I try showing the brighterside of things. Half the shit I rant about I don't even really mean or care about.
That's the End.
I love you all
Thanks and Goodnight,
Sincerely
Ricky MacCarl.
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